when do i get to be a grown up?

i consider myself grown up.

i have a somewhat grown up job. i drink grown up drinks. i pay grown up bills. i use grown up words. i have grown up responsibilities. i make grown up decisions.

yet somehow, among all these grown up things i partake in day in and day out, i still feel very childish. and not in a good way.

i am currently blogging to you from under the roof of the people i babysit for. i have the pleasure of playing mom to simon for the next few days while his parents are off doing, er, ya know, grown up things.

anyway. simon and i were chatting earlier. just about life, polictics, and world peace. important six year old stuff. no big deal. somewhere in the middle of our conversation of putting an end to hunger i mentioned how i was an adult, a grown up. simon giggled. i asked him what was so funny. his response?

"amanda, you're not a grown up until you have your own house and are married and have a baby."

ho hum. i'd be lying if i said he didn't shut me right up.

after a second or two i rebuttled. trying to understand his reasoning. which mind you, trying to find a six year olds reasoning is very tiring. but i guess it all makes sense. in the eyes of a six year old, that is just what he thinks and sees. movies. books. regular day activity. i'm okay with it. but not totally accepting of it. i want to be a grown up in his eyes. i want to be married, living in my own house and have a baby. of course, i'll just take a rented apartment and a boyfriend at this rate. baby steps, people.

but i'm ready. please, who am i kidding? i've been ready. i want that big girl job, since eh, i decided i slightly dislike my currect job a lot as of a few hours ago. i want to meet a guy who is interested in taking me to dinner instead of taking me to bed. i want to find a place in new york.

i know this post is filled with a lot of wants and me, me, me. i'm aware that doesn't help in my whole grown up image i'm trying to portray.

but it's my blog, and i'll whine if i want to.

what makes you feel grown up?

no work, please?

good morning peanut heads!

that wind outside my window is brutal. it woke me up all through the night. i hate, with a passion, being woken up in the middle of the night. because then it is almost an impossible mission for me to fall back asleep. lordy, lordy.

another short week this week. {anyone have any awesome new years plans?} i'm slightly dreading going into work today. someone might actually have to kick my butt out the door or something in order for it to happen. anyway, the positive part is, i only have to work today and then i am off until next tuesday. hollla. i'm not going to lie, i'm pretty obsessed with that.

moving right along. . .

another thing i am totally and utterly obsessed with is this egg poacher i got

oh my gosh, this thing is da bomb! i don't think i can get enough. and i'm okay with that. i used it for breakfast. . .

with a clementine on the side. since clementines are another thing i'm completely obsessed with. sheesh.

and then i used it for lunch with a side of mango. . .

i ate by candlelight. i like having a nice ambiance while i dine in my room alone.

i definitely had a big cup of coffee during the day. . .

with maybe a little baileys thrown into it. . .

NBD
{no big deal}

i had a deeeelicious bowl of campbells select for dinner. it was so chilly, i was joneing for something warm to heat my body up. and this did the trick no diggity no doubt.

i ejoyed this while watching a whole lot of SVU. . .elliot stabler-hubba hubba!

and flipping through the pages of this. . .

eeek. i just looked at the clock and realized it's 10:28 and i'm still not dressed. i guess i better get a move on. have a lovely tuesday gals!

i can't believe i have to wait an entire year until i get to indulge in christmas all over again.

the festivities started christmas eve. my brother in sister-in-law have both their families over for a big traditional thanksgiving-y meal.

my plate looked a little something like this:

but i was wayyyy stuffed after snacking too much on all this:

pizza dip...yum!

delaney enjoyed some good eats as well!

nobody puts baby in the corner!

it is crazy that this time last year, this wild walking woman was just a few weeks old. . .

after dinner we all partake in some white elephant exchange giving. it's a simple ten dollar limit. it's a great time. i love seeing what everyone picks.
this year, i walked away with this great jar and a ten dollar movie gift card. perfecto.

the sister and i awoke to this christmas morning.
those two big boxes would be our new 32inch flat screen tv's. cha-ching! i was pumped about this since my current tv was old and dying on me ever so quickly.

stockings are my FAVORITE. santa must know this, because he gave me TWO this year instead of just one
i found this jar of peanut butter inside the one. yup, that confirms it! santa really does know me!

after a morning of present opening, dad made the traditional eggnog french toast. i had mine with some sausage and a clementine. it was the best!

sporting our very cool matching pj's we got.
the sister and i got my mom a bike...but i think she was more ecstatic over the box load of christmas books my dad got her. she has a slight obsession with christmas novels.
the afternoon consisted of more gift exchanging once the grandparents and the brother and sis and laney came over.
delaney got soooooo much. but she was more interested in the candy on the table then anything else.

always keeping her eyes on you

cuddles was exhausted by the end of the night....
....or maybe she was dreaming of the peanut butter canoli i bought her at the pet bakery as her christmas morning treat

"i'm ready to go home RIGHT NOW, mom!"

i hope everyone had a fantastic christmas!
get anything extra special?

i hope santa made all your dreams come true!

it's good to be back on broadway!

{mr. magoo, anyone?}

i love that movie! such a classic christmas film for sure!

anyway, it does feel good to be back. for good. i love my new little home ellie designed for me. she's seriously a real life gem. she put up with all of my nitty gritty desires and came up with a masterpiece. pay her a visit-she works wonders!

moving right along. . .
can anyone else not believe that christmas is just TWO days away. count them kiddos, TWO days. sheesh. my christmas shopping is still lacking. i have a few more odds and ends to accomplish before christmas eve dinner tomorrow night. and i honest to goodness want no part of making a trip to the mall or anywhere else for that matter. last minute shopping is the pits and i feel silly for fitting into that category. mmm...i guess having my christmas shopping finished by december 15th like i stated here won't be happen this year. good thing i still have a few years to make that happen.

however, despite my inner slacker, i am overly pumped for the next few days. christmas eve is always my favorite. with christmas morning being a very close runner up. {clearly} i can't wait to have my own children so i can see the magic on their faces as they open up their gifts from santa. i think it's just the cutest and such a wonderful time of year. most definitely my favorite. if fall and christmas all happened together-i'd be living very large.

speaking of large. . .i feel like i'm living oh so large as of lately. i would be lying if i said there was a christmas cookie my mouth hasn't nibbled on. i'm slightly obsessed with my moms baking in general, so it's always a pretty dangerous scene when the cookie tins fill with yummy treats. and i can't tell you the last time the elliptical machine and i have made contact. i'm pretty sure with all of the food i've been consuming and will consume, i'll be looking like jolly old saint nicholas himself in no time.

for reals, though. lets take a look at what i gobble up JUST today. . .

ohh...and maybe some unpicture chocolate covered pretzels and a few cookies and a piece of a donut and a great big bowl of kashi honey sunshine cereal. {the kashi gods sent me a wonderful two dollar off coupon-i definitely used it!}

now, in the meantime...
here are just a few things that have happened. . .

my favorite tree at work lost all its leaves. and color.

i went to visit kara. and we walked across the brooklyn bridge for the first time ever in our lives. we basically loved it.

this little lady learned how to walk. terror alert!

ohhh! and she also turned one...pretty amazing.

and maybe, just maybe i became super in love with honest tea.

no joke, yo. i wish honest tea had a hut right next to my house. i'm jonesing to try every single flavor. i think that would be super duper amazing. just putting that out there HT! in case you're looking for some sort of relocation.

happy eve before christmas eve!

ho ho ho!

under the weather!

{not me...the blog}

she is going through a little transformation. i figure, what better way to come back than
with a real boom! so she's undergoing some surgery and getting all prettified! i'm quite
excited and tickled.

on a side note. . .horsham is being trampled with a pretty out of control snow storm. yuppp. it's already an impressive amount and it's only 5:39...AND the snow is supposed to continue until tomorrow morning. sheesh.

but i ain't gonna lie* . . .i love it oh so much!**


*how is that for an english major?
**maybe it's a little lie since i didn't get to finish my christmas shopping today like i planned, and my new york trip is most likely not happening.

*image

dear little blog,

i am terribly sorry for avoiding you. i have good reasons, i promise. and it won't be long until i'm back for good. i'm not even kidding you, i miss you very much. but you've been such a patient little blog. hanging around, waiting for my return. and it's coming. seriously. i've been running around like a chicken without its head. thanks for being the most understanding little blog around this side of the block. you're simply the best. i can't wait to sit down and chat with you again. to have our sweet one on ones. it's going to be the cats meow. you just wait!

ps, i've been v.v.v.very giddy about the christmas season.

love always,

amanda