disappearing act.

but i'll be back...with updates. and pictures. pictures of my hair. {or lack thereof} i got it all chopped off. but gained some bangs along the way. you just wait, brazin' bloggers, you just wait. . .

and ohhh!
i've definitely been enjoying all these chilly fall days and nights.

thanks

dear dancing with the stars,

thank you for already having me hooked like a fish.

for reals, how do you do it? i thought, "mmm, these peeps look aight. but i don't know if i'll get attached like i have in previous seasons, though."

well golly gee! i was wrong. i curled up on the couch with the mama tonight to indulge in about five hours worth of dancingggg. seeing as we had to catch up on two episodes and then watch the results show right after. sheeesh. you wear me out, dwts!

anyway, attached i am. i've already cried, laughed hysterically and have major crushes. this will be a killllah season. that i am sure of.

as for my other wednesday night tv watching-i will have to tune into the dvr tomorrow to see how top model and svu turned out.

and oh, if that's not enough...i still have 90210, greek, melrose and fringe to watch. oyyy veyyyy. oh. and now tomorrow greys shall start back up. i live a lovely life. a lovely life of lots of television.

moving right a.l.o.n.g.

okayyy...so i'm thinking of joining the gym. i am pretty sure i've never actually belonged to a gym. unless college counts. but it doesn't. because i was automatically a member. and i barely attended. except for when i was trying to mack it on some boy.

but yes, since i seriously need to kick it into high power, i think a gym membership is the way to go. even though i think paying to workout royally stinks. but maybe, just maybe it's what i have to do to motivate myself. because for the life of me, i can't find the motivation. you'd think that little bridesmaid dress hanging in my closet would be motivation enough. but mmm...alas. it is not. how do you bloggies feel about the gym?? do tell!

however, i don't think last nights dessert was very gym friendly.
pumpkin pie blizzard.
but it tasted so dang gooooood!

before i ate this very tasty treat...i went to see my dear friend jonny show off his mad wing eating skills. {hahaha} winner took a prize of 500 bucks. it was quite the event.

jonathan looking freaked out. probably because of the wacko sitting next to him.

LET THE GAMES BEGIN!

standing up looks so macho

all finished and about to vomit

needless to say, he didn't win. the competition was pretty hefty. but he held his own. his support system was all very proud of him.
{and ohhh...one of the bartenders at the place has a crazy resemblance to a certain mister joshua jackson...you would have enjoyed, katelin!}

i had to be at work at 6:30 this morning. those early shifts are redonkulous. i picked myself up a caramel coffee and i brought a toasted spinach bagel with me from home

breakfast of champions. clearlyyyyyyy.

this is what my lunch looked like. . .

half a piece of bread smothered in peanut butter and folded over. . .

with some animal crackers on the side

and risotto with asparagus and two mini tacos on the side
both a thanks to trader joes frozen aisles!

dessert-frozen chocolate covered nanner

purrrrfection!

andddd...i'd be lying if i said i am happy about the warm front making its way into town. i was welcoming fall with the biggest of opened arms.

please come back, fall. i'd really like to hang out in a yard full of leaves.

*loveit*

picture overload.

i believe. . .

my layout needs some spicing up

i believe. . .

my for real life, not gonna quit, healthy lifestyle starts this week

i believe. . .

fall is wonderful

i believe. . .

in telling myself that living in new york is in the near future

i believe. . .

it's seriously time for a haircut

i believe. . .

that sewing machine sitting next to me isn't going to teach itself

happy sunday, blogettes!

and gee, what a lovely sunday it has been. tomorrow looks even better, however. day off, babysitting laney bug, greek, one tree hill, gossip girl AND DANCING WITH THE STARS STARTS BACK UP. jigga please. thank you little baby jesus for bringing back fall tv. {just one more reason as to WHY fall is in fact wonderful}

but okay, rewind. i took a few days off of blogging. but baby, I'M BACK! miss me?

lets recap, shall we? i think we shall, yo!

pictures from the VMA's...ready...set...and go...

{every other picture came out REALLY lousy-booooo}

we ate at fridays and this is the delicious {but SO fattening} asian salad i ordered

i love slash hate how new york includes the calories on their menus. eeeeekkkk.

i've heard a lot about mixmygranola. it seems like everyone and their mother in the blog world has ordered mix after mix. so i jumped on the bandwagon and placed an ordered. it came the next day. gleeeeee.

my grrrrrnola, the title of my mix, contains low fat granola, dried mangos, dried melon slices and pomegranate cordials. i am QUITE obsessed. it's so fresh and amazing.

ashley and i went to a phillies game.

hiiiii, ashley!
we sat in her hall of fame seats. and it was just grand.
we saw an awesome game! the crowd was going wilddddd.

i had a hotdog and a beer {maybe a few beers, but who's counting?}

and ash and i split some friesit was 'twas a BEAUTIFUL wonderful night.

AND OHHH...of course after the game we weren't ready to go home. so we headed into mcfaddens for some entertainment. apparently i've never been in the bathroom of mcfaddens. because i was shocked and so giddy when i saw what awaited inside the bathroom door. wonders and wonders of candy assortments. no joke, best bathroom EVAAAAAA. i of course helped myself.


now some tasty porn. FOOD PORN that is. sorry to disappoint.

cup of broc and cheddar soup from jason's delithis was sooooooooooo good. i love soup.

i picked up some blueberry oikos greek yogurt

i used one of the FREE coupons i received!

i added some of my grrrrnola mix to jazz it up

this was BANGIN'! the melons and granola were a perfect addition to creaminess of the blueberry yogurt. i might just be in love.

a co-worker brought this yummy pasta dish in

it is seriously so simple, but it was honest to goodness fabbbb-o!

another day, another co-worker meal brought in

mandarin salad and apple cobbler...goooood stuff!!

i went to dinner one night with a friend from work and i ordered this honey mustard grilled chicken sandwich

it was sooooo very good.

i also had my first fall oreo of the season

it tasted like a pumpkin patch in my mouth!

kashi sent me this honey sunshine sample

so i had it for breakfast this morning

it needed some grrrrnola

i ADORED this sunshine cereal. the taste was just right. however, it got SUPER soggy SUPER fast. and i didn't love that because i don't love soggy cereal. but all in all, good work kashi folks!!

my lunch was some roast beef and ricotta on a wrap with some tort. chips and enchilada salsa on the side

dinner was this dish made by papa stout
{i made the asparagus because my plate needed some green}

sorry for the mile long post. i had some major catching up to do. i am now off to watch a walk to remember, because no matter how many times i see it, it never gets old.

waveeee ya' hands in the air like ya' just don't careeeeee

one day,

everything will fall into place.

or so i keep telling myself.

right now my room is a mess. my room is never a mess. it is driving me nuts. and i can't seem to find the time to straighten it up. to make it clean. to put the things sitting on my dresser away. to put the books piled up on my nightstand in their proper shelves. my bed is unmade. i always make my bed. i think it makes a room look more together. but currently, i've been in an unmade bed kind of mood. and i don't like this kind of mood. not one single, tiny little bit.

i have my cute sewing machine sitting on the floor. just waiting for someone to create something
on it. but i don't even know where to begin.

weheartit


also, i need batteries for my camera. i hate it when my camera dies and i run out of batteries. i meant to pick some up when i was out at the store-but i forgot. so my vma post is being postponed.

as if.

yeah. the saga continues. or well, it did. but it's currently come to a major {and very permanent} halt. for realz, for realz. i'm sticking to my guns. because apparently i'm a creeper? who knew. i knew, that's who.

you know how i said i had temporary self-control? as in, i was good for the time being. but please. after not hearing anything back from the boy-i decided to reach out. {again} so i text the number he called me on. simply asking why he wrote me off for no good reason? damnit, i like reason!

this is what i get in return: and lets just say i don't love it...

leave kris alone. he's got enough to handle besides you. and he certainly doesn't want you driving past his house like a stalking creeper. that's on some crazy psycho bitch shit. obviously he didn't respond to your creeper letter either so fall back and take a hint. damn.

which of course makes me giggle. like come on. are you kidding me? so i of course don't leave it at that. because i always NEED to have the last word. duh.

what he says back to me?

if some guy stops contact thn fall back and take the hint. it shouldn't have to be spelled out. esp after he ignores your letter, which i read and admit you come off pshyco and desperate. showing up at his house is downright stalker. there's no way around that. nor is there any valid reason for it.

again, giggle. dude. because it wasn't a letter, it was a card. and i didn't say anything desperate. or psychotic. i said i was worried. i said i like where things were going. i said i hope he wasn't dead. i can admit when i'm desperate and psycho. because i've been. haven't we all? but i wasn't. not either of those two things with this boy. he was always the one calling me. wanting to be with me. so i find it slightly funny. i didn't even really like him. i liked the attention. and where things maybe could have gone. but secretly i knew they wouldn't go anywhere. but i kind of just liked the game. the late night sexting. having someone there.

but i'd be lying if i said i didn't care why he out of nowhere changed his mind.

anyway! last night my feet were planted outside the video music awards. as each celeb stepped out of their fancy car, i stood there across the street, camera in hand, excitedly. it was a neat experience. however, i felt like a sardine. and mama no likey. i'll be back tomorrow with a bigger and better post. because ahem, one tree hill and gossip girl are starting back tonight. gigga, whatttt. so pumped. i'll be dvr'ing greek. too many shows, too little hours!

but real quick, kenye west's behavior last night with taylor swift, uncalled for. i am sure you've all heard about what happened. everyone and their brother has heard about it.

okayyy, off to tune into my shows! happy watching!

imageeee

wasn't me.

(Yo', man) Yo'
(Open up, man) What do you want, man?
(My girl just caught me) You let her catch you?
(I don't know how I let this happen) With who?
(The girl next door, you know) Man
(I don't know what to do) Say it wasn't you
(Alright)

{shagggyyyy anyone?}
and not at all the same situation-yet still slightly fitting.

BUT...first let me say...i was hoping for more inspiration out of all of you! but no big...i still love you all v.v.v.very much. and for my two lonely responses of in-spir-ation...thanks!!

okayyy, now here we go now. sitting down? this is a doozy. but a good doozy.

tonight my crazy came out. from all ends of my 5ft body. it comes out often, don't get me wrong, but tonight it really came out. and i love it.

a friend of mine i work with lives close to that boy. you know, the one you all hate. the one that i still keep chasing. {look for my episode of mtv coming up...true life: i'm a fool}

so my friend and i decide it would be quite fun to drive by his house. yeah, just to see what's up with his life and all. see if there is a for sale sign outside...or any sign of life in his place. anything at all. just to give me some feedback. because it's all a real big mess-and i'm not willing to accept that he's just not that into me. after all, things were fineeee. and this behavior came out of NO WHERE!

i drove to her house tonight for our mission. we drive to his neighborhood. turns out, one of her really good friends actually lives right in his hood. small world. um, so i slightly forget which house is actually his. so we slowly creep down the street. all harmless and all. we had talked about lyza getting out of the car and knocking on the door. just to see if he answered. just to see if he was there. but instead, we just crept. and then giggled when we saw someone at his window. someone who she said looked like a large woman. i didn't get a good peek. i was trying to be SOMEWHAT incognito. and i was sort of kind of ducking. and it was dusk outside...and there was no way possible that anyone could see who was in the car. so we both have to pee and decide to leave the joint for now and go down the street to mcdonalds to use the bathroom.

we get back in the car and my phone starts ringing. a number i don't know. but his area code nonetheless. i figure i'll let voicemail get it and see if whoever it is leaves a message. because it could be anyone. right?? well no message. so i call the number back. and as soon as he answers i know it's HIS voice. so i quickly panic. DID HE SEE ME?? holy moly batman! because there would be no way he could have seen me.

i play stupid.

him: hello?
me: who is this?
him: who is this?
me: um, i'm pretty sure you called me.
him: um, i'm pretty sure you just called me.
me: yes...because i was calling this number back. who is this?
him: you know who this is.
me: i don't. i've never seen this number.
him: you KNOW who this is.
me: . . .ehh. . .
him: why'd you just drive by me house?
me: huh? {playing it cool and all} who is this? {oh, and did i forget to mention-i'm like a five year old!}
him: you know who this is. what are you doing?
me: what? what are you talking about?
him: why'd you drive by my house creeper?

then i do what any self respecting person that just got caught by a guy who has been shady towards them for three weeks would do-hang up. obviouslyyyy. because he saw me. he saw me in my friends car driving down his street. and well, that's f'n weird. i collect myself and call him back. because please, who am i kidding? i am f'n weird.

him: helllllllo.
me: hi.
him: so who is this?
me: what?
him: what are you doing?
me: what do you mean what am i doing? why'd you call me?
him: why'd you drive by my house all slow and shit? what are you doing?
me: i didn't. i'm at the mall.
him: i didn't say, "where are you?" i said, "what are you doing?"
me: i'm at the MALL, shopping.
him: for what?
me: a dress.
him: for what?
me: a wedding.
him: oh. are you getting married on me?
me: what? no. you're weird.
him: i'm weird, yet you drove by MY house?
me: ha. i didn't drive by your house. remember, you still haven't told me who this is.
him: what's the point? you know.

this went on for a few minutes. ridiculous. so i ended up hanging up again. i told you...i'm five years old. but then i realize, i want to actually talk to him. i want to KNOW what happened. hello! whole point of driving by his house. but i'm thinking, great, now what? how do you admittedly tell someone you haven't talked to in weeks that you just drove by their house? when they don't even live close by? how is that a human thing to say? oh that's right, you don't, because it's not a human thing to say. it's a freak thing to say. but then i'm thinking, whatever. he called me...and answered me twice when i called him...so i can just fess up. i call back...

boy doesn't answer. lame. i leave a message. because i had to 'splain myself. in the most human-like possible way.

me: okay. so it's me. and maybe i do know who this is now. but on my defense-i looked like a real weirdo, and you called me out on it-and called me from a number i didn't recognize. but truth is, i was visiting a friend who lives around you. she said we had to stop at her friends real quick. as we were approaching i saw it was right where you lived. and so we were at her friends house literally a street away. and i thought, i can't be right here and not at least drive by. so we did. but i didn't know which house was yours...so we just crept down the whole street. and never in two million years did i think you'd actually see me. so that's kind of humiliating. but funny, very funny. i'm glad you're alive. you can call me back-but you probably won't, because apparently you don't call me back anymore. kay-bye.

yup. that's how it ended. and now nothing. not that i expected anything. and yeah, i lied to him. oh well. also, i honest to goodness thought NOTHING would come from tonight. i thought, we'd drive by his house...see nothing...and that'd be that. boy was i wrong. and of course, now i want call back this new number he has given me access to. but i won't. i do have some self control...please.*

*disclaimer...i can't promise i'll have much self control say, um, tomorrow.

tell me blissful bloggers...

what inspires you?




*weheartit*

someone give me a vacation.

i think living in a neighborhood of colorful staircases would be just lovely. don't you agree?

anywhooooo! want to hear something fun? or at least fun in my world. this sunday is the VMA's. in new york city. my friend and i have talked about red carpeting it up for years now. yet we never actually done so. well, this year is different. because this year i will be one of those crazy fans snapping photos oh the rich and famous. ehh...can i get a hell yeah? now, i'm definitely not a mega music fan by any means. i'd much rather be at the academy awards, don't get me wrong. but a girl needs to take what she can get.

and another fun note{s}: gossip girl and tree hill start back up on monday. however, i am slightly concerned about the two main characters on tree hill not being there. but i guess we shall see what happens. and right around the corner, dancing with the stars will be back up in no time. as will greys. oy vey. how i've missed my tv shows. it's a wonder how i make it out alive during the summma time. for reals now, yo.

i've been a reading slacker as of late. a month ago, i was a lean mean reading machine. whizzing through books. but now, now i just can't seem to find the time.

last night for dinner i tried one of my cedar's mediterranean produts i recieved in the mail. i had a side of the edamame salad. it smelled delish when i opened it. i didn't know whether it needed to be heated or should just be eaten cold. so i went with my gut since it is a salad and all-and kept it cold. it tasted just like pasta salad...minus the actual pasta. i know it is called edamame salad, but i thought there were way too many and not enough kernerls of corn. don't get me wrong, i loved the flavoring...but i just would have liked more corn in mine. i will definitely be pairing this up as a side in the near future!

i was excited for my dessert. i bought betty crocker warm delight minis in some sort of caramel flavoring. i thought it was going to be delicious. but it was just okay. it wasn't awful. but it wasn't anything to write home about. i do however love how easy it is to make. that gets an a+ in my book.my dinner tonight was oh so simple. my sister had a bowl of ramen the other day. i have never been a ramen eater. nevaaa evaaa. while all my college friends thought it was the best, the smell alone made me want to gag. but for some reason, i've been craving it ever since my sister was chomping away on it. so i made some chicken ramen. it satisfied my craving that's for sure. but i am positive that i probably won't eat ramen anytime soon again. ho hum.

update: the boy you have all told me to get rid of many times is still mia. even after i sent him a very sweet card. just to make sure he wasn't dead and all. i of course try his phone once, or maybe more, a day. just to see if it will ring. but nooo. i keep getting that same annoying message. except for tonight. tonight i got a new message when i tried calling. it said..."the wireless number you are calling is not available." mmmm. i get that i might be coming off ridiculous. pathetic even. which is fine. i've already accepted that. i just don't like loose ends. so i need to know!!! and eh, i deserve to know what's up, don't i?? fml...fml...


*imageeeee

noddin' my head like yeah, movin' my hips like yeah.

oh dear hannah song, you make me very happy

i hope everyone has been enjoying themselves over the last of the summer holidays.

i know i sure have!

lets go back a few days, shall we? as we all know-my birthday was thursday. one of my co-workers brought me in a mcdonalds salad for lunch. because ahem, i have an obsession with mcdonalds salads. {weird, huh?} my co-workers also sang happy birthday to me and got me this delish ice cream cake. i made a wonderful wish!

and thennnn...as if the ice cream cake wasn't enough, there was an ice cream stand set up in the caf at lunchtime. so of course, i treated myself. because on your birthday, you can eat whatever you want and it doesn't count. oh wait, that's not how it works? jigga, please.

i ordered banana cream pie with reeces pieces on top. loveddddd it!
there were little pie crust pieces in this and it was divine!

okay, moving along to the next day. . .

when i got home from work on friday, i found this package waiting for me on my bedi opened it up...and surprise!
cedars mediterranean foods sent me an assortment of goodies! artichoke and spinach hommus, roasted garlic and chive hommus, chickpea salad, edamame salad, pita chips and tzatziki cumcumber garlic yogurt dip.
wowzaaaa.

a little about cedars:
Cedar's Mediterranean Foods, Inc. well known for being the leading force in the production and distribution of Hommus and other great Mediterranean Food Products, is situated in a a brand new state of the art 100,000 Sq. ft. Corporate Office and production plant in Massachusetts. Our plant affords us the opportunity to bring many new and innovative products to our loyal customers which will help you to add to your Mediterranean sections. Mediterranean Foods continue to be a HOT segment of the market and Cedar's will continue to lead the way.

i can't wait to try everything out!

friday night jen and i went shopping for the birthday bash we were throwing on saturday. it was quite stressful. and we've decided that we're not the best party throwers.

jen freaking out in the dollar store
phew, no worries...every great bash needs glow stick hats!

flashhh forward to saturday-birthday bash

we had to get a half keg since apparently they don't do quarters of natty light. a half keg was way too much. seeing as there is still a ridiculous amount of beer in my backyard right now.

the early crew
let the games begin!

the underagers-sister, sister's boyfriend and sister's friendprettyyyy coupleyes, jessica alba made an appearance at my birthday bash. the paparazzi were swarming the street.

i got way too drunk way too quickly. and ended up dropping my camera and semi-breaking it. i don't remember ever dropping it, though. sad face. i don't remember a few incidents of the evening, actually. oops.

fun birthday gifts:

the sister got me these adorable boxer shorts
erika gave me these awesome smelling calming body products
ashley made me this totally kick butt shirt...which has offically become my yearly birthday shirt from here on out...clearlyyyyyy!
kara made me up this sweet mug of fabulousness
birthday tea from alice's tea cup! the exact tea i had while visiting kara in new york. i am so stoked to drink this! andddd...because i was so in love with these faux black framed glasses i spotted at a little street market-she got me a pair!!
leah gave me my ecua earrings she's been hoarding
my parents got me a sewing machinehow dahlingggg! i can't wait to start sewing up a storm!

thanks so much for all the DAZZLING presents!

my sunday consisted of lounging in bed for a very long time. i was terribly ill hungover and needed to recoup.

this morning, {monday} i woke up bright and early to hit up a flea market by my house with jen and her sister. the market was packed...but we were there before the REAL crowd started rolling in.

the traffic on the other side is probably a mile away from the market. we were heading home at this point.suckaaas!

i came home and had this for breakfast
an egg sammie and two maple syrup sausage patties. yummmmm!

i now plan on browsing new cameras on amazon in hopes to find something in my price range. i'm also going to play with my new sewing machine while wearing my new glasses...because i need to be able to see clearer! giggggle.